Correction Fluid

To download:  Supermodified by Amon Tobin (it’s a brilliant album).

I have a new phone. Must think of a name. And figure out everything that’s going on with it. It’s orgasmic.

Worked 10:30am-3pm. 5pm-9:30pm. Then went to Korbin’s, Blenz, Subway, and Blenz.

I’m fading.

Phone is so pretty though… cannot pull away…

Wooooo. This reminds me of Canada Day. And that Party at Justin’s that I ended up sleeping over.

It’s sweet. I have a new camera and a new phone. Frick I wish I’d had it on Canada Day.

I’ve taken to posting a couple things a day on my tumblr now. No more of this 100+ things a week madness, I had no life lol.

Here’s a song I came across that makes me enormously happy.

I was high as a kite last night. I had the equilvalent of about 4 brownies, smoked half a joint, smoked a couple tokes from a pipe, then smoked some more from a pipe. Soooooo high. All within 3 hours.

Good times for sure.

I also had an amazing sleep with no plans for the day. No work no nothing. FREE.

Salmon Festival and a keggar tomorrow. Today will likely consist of dinner with the family (FINALLY it’s been like a week) and a trip to Value Village for a disco costume and possibly new work shoes. Pretty sure I slept too late for the mall to be open when I venture out. Oh well.

Fuck I can’t believe I was walking everywhere in heels last night. HAHAHAHAH.

I slept in, got off work early, had rice with chicken and lemon juice and mozerella cheese melted on top (like that snack thing I posted awhile ago, nomnomnom), had mocha yogurt for dessert, and found a song that I’ve been looking for since ever.

Make It Wit Chu by Queens of the Stone Age.

And here I though they were saying “I want to make out with you” the whole time, and thus, could not find the lyrics. Oh well. Still a win of a song.

Time to get some heels on and go get high. Rebel child? Sigh.

Shopping for new work shoes and a disco costume tomorrow. Fuck my poor feet.♥

I’ve been singing Where Does the Good Go by Tegan and Sara for the past couple days. I only knew one line till I finally bothered to listen to it again. Weeeooo.

6.5 hour Sunday morning shift was brutal. There was barely a minute of rest. We were understaffed but I made almost a dollar in tips (lol) and scored a free lighter. Wooo. I’ve never owned a lighter before.

I can’t fucking wait for my days off. Dreams, I miss you so, come back to me please, you make me happy.

Canada Day is so close I can fell it. Keggar in the making? Fuck yeah. I’ve never been to one. I want to go shopping. Tuesday? Yes, let’s.

I’m going to try and get Rae my job at the hotel. I just hope she doesn’t quit because then I’d feel all guilty and stuff for shoving them an uncommitted employee. Whatever! Not like I ever have to work their again. I mean I’ve worked their 4 times since June… 5th or something it was? I don’t care. Fuck it.

I’m so stoked. I’m probably getting mah new fone in the afternoon! AHHAHAHAHA NEW TECHNOLOGY IS THE BEST I CAN’T WAIT AHHHHHHHHHASHDHASDAD;FK;JSDF.

I think I’ll save for a new computer next. Mine is shit. It keeps skipping music and flashing warning of my internal memory being too low and it can’t run games because it has a shitty graphics card and I’m tired so I’m going to run away now.

Look me in the eye and tell me you don’t find me attractive
Look me in the heart and tell me you won’t go

Destroyed. I’m fucking destroyed. Hehehe. A good night’s sleep and I’ll be ready to go again. I can’t wait till my day off on Tuesday! And Canada Day I’m not working either! And then I don’t work till 5pm on Thursday! I love my life!

Life goes as follows:

Thursday:
??????am – Sleep.
03:00pm – Wake up.
04:10pm – Drive to work.
04:30pm – Work.
09:22pm – Bus home.
09:55pm – Home.
10:00pm – Start documentary about the South Pole. It just took me 3 tries to spell Pole correctly. Pool. Poll. Pole.
10:30pm – Ally arrives; restart documentary.

Friday:
12:20am – Finish documentary; watch little Britain; try to understand the English dialect.
12:56am – Ally goes home; bike to Blenz.
01:00am – Arrive at Blenz; Hi Rosy and Matt.
02:14am – Bike home.
02:16am – Arrive home in record time.
02:50am – Read A Million Little Pieces.
03:40am – Shove a bookmark in and sleep.
10:00am – Wake up.
10:55am – Catch bus.
11:30am – Work.
05:12pm – Bus.
05:36pm – Hi Daniel.
07:25pm – Bus.
07:58pm – Home.
08:30pm – Shower.
09:35pm – Bike to Danny’s; Hi Rae; walk/bike to Justin’s.
09:45pm – Justin’s.
10:30pm – Change into lingerie.

Saturday:
01:40am – Everyone’s gone except for me, Adel, Ryan, Ty, Justin, and Andrew (the last 3 live there).
04:30am – Finally turn the music down; clean up the many broken bottles; put the booze “away”; drink some water; climb into Andrew’s bed.
06:00am – Wake up half asleep; Andrew’s passed out with his glasses on; remove Andrew’s glasses; smile at his adorableness; roll over; sleep.
12:30am – Woken up by the playing of drums, loud metal music, cooking, talking, human life; hide under the covers; try to sleep.
01:00pm – Around this time I fall asleep.
02:20pm – Get up and out of bed; grab bag; Bye Andrew; stumble out; bike home.
02:35pm – Home; get changed; eat some grapes.
02:55pm – Bus.
02:57pm – Hilary gets on the bus.
03:35pm – Murphy’s.
03:50pm – Beer pong; lose by 1.
04:25pm – Beer pong; win by 1.
04:50pm – Rematch; lose by 1.
05:12pm – Ride shotgun with Behrmann and Jono to work tipsy; chew gum; grin a lot.
05:25pm – Early for work (that’s okay, I’m smiling, deep breaths into the mirror, let’s do it!)
07:30pm – Finally bother to check the time again (coming down to the buzz level); sometime before now Chris came in with his Family; I haven’t seen Chris in AGES (I almost didn’t recognize him at first); Hi Chris (I told him I was tipsy while leaning on the hostess stand… woops).
09:15pm – Bus.
09:50pm – Subway lady is so fucking slow! Ahmahgawd.
10:10pm – Murphy’s; Hi Milana and people I don’t know very well.

Sunday:
12:30am – Thanks for the ride home Kati.

I’m exhausted now and have work at 11am. FML. This coming week is going to be amazing though. I can’t wait to get paid.

Sleep. Work. Go out. Sleep. Rinse. Work. Go out. Sleep. Rinse. Go out. Work. Go out. Sleep. Rinse. Repeat.

That’s my lift right now. I’m stressed. And exhausted. And tired. And drained.

Sugi’s opted out of doing any h-core narcotics anytime soon so that drug binge might not be happening with her. S’ok, I have lots more crazy friends. Just would have been epic with Suugz.

I’m probably going to be MIA till about Sunday night. My weekend schedule looks something like this:

Friday: Work. Shower. Party. Sleep.
Saturday: Party. Work. Party. Sleep.
Sunday: Work. Shower. Go out. Sleep.

I can’t wait to get a new phone. Having an electronic distraction will definitely help improve my current state. I also want to get to Value Village next week to find some more cardigans and tank tops. I also desire new work shoes as mine are falling apart. I can’t wait till I have enough saved up to get myself some lululemon pants or tnas. Hilary’s sisters and my capris ones make my life right now. EVER SO COMFY AND VERSATILE.

IOU:
350$ – Dad; Bartending School
300$ – Dad; Cell Phone
50$-100$ – Matt M; External Hard drive Fixage
200$+ – Dad; Birthday Party Food and Drank

I currently have about 200$. I cannot wait till my next paycheck. I’m expecting about 500$, since it’s 3 weeks instead of 2. And then, after I get all this paid off, I get to save up! I get to save for going clubbing, updating my wardrobe, possibly getting a new computer asap, new sneakers (ugh still don’t have any), etc. AND THEN AFTER THAT. I get to save to move out. Woe.

I have to be awake in 7 hours so I should get into bed. Cheers to a packed weekend.

P.S. Fun fact! I have yet to wear the same thing to work (at SC) twice. Mixing and matching clothing ftw.

Today has been a day of getting things done and keeping to myself. I slept till 3pm, rushed to get ready for work, was driven by my dad. Work was simple tonight, no problems. I was the only hostess on and there was only one busser so I stayed a half hour later and helped clean up in the back and wipe everything down and eat soup. Mmm split pea. It was weird though. I was asked about what I’m doing with my life, what I’ve done in the past, etc but all my answered barely brushed the surface where I tend to dive into detail.

I’ve been very disjointed from reality these past two days. I didn’t go out tonight either, and wasn’t invited out. That might be because of the weather (it’s raining again) and the fact that everyone’s going out tomorrow the next day and the next. Either way, it’s fitting my mood.

Caught the 9:22pm bus and made it home just before dark. Once home I had chili from dinner and ice water with lemon juice (new healthy drink of choice). I did a white wash finally and spent two hours working out the numbers for the best phone plan option and phones.

Isn’t is pretty? 8.1mp camera ftw.

I asked my dad if we could go get the phones tomorrow but he did a kind of PHEW and said he’d need some time to look over it all and absorb the information. We’re probably going next week then, as I’m busy all weekend.

Anyways, I just got myself more chili and grilled cheese and water. Mm. I should stop eating so late.

I miss blasting music through my speakers at UVic.

What am I going to wear to the underwear affair on Friday? I’d better get that sorted out.

Idk. It’s like my mind is floating. I wanna try blazing in this state…

Fucking sob story. There are way to many people in my life right now that are depressed. This is taking a serious toll on myself, considering I like to help them out in any way I can. I’m not unhappy, I know that, I had a great day today until I saw my friends, the new “couple”, totally cuddling and having their own private conversation while I’m just sitting there with my other friend like great. Now what. Fucking hell I need to stop being so sensitive.

Seriously though. UVic Matt and I just had this huge conversation about it.

Matt M says (12:46 AM):
good couples are ones that can act like FRIENDS when they are among friends

It just really bothers me since I’ve commented on them doing it before. It makes me feel like shit but it really bothers me and I know I’m not the only one bothered by it.

Anyways. Depressing point of the day was getting home to a house with ALL the lights off to find my brother asleep on the couch with the tv on. It’s ridiculous how badly I feel about what happened to him.

I’m going to go continue reading A Million Little Pieces now to scare the fuck out of myself. Though I finished part 1 already, so the scary part’s over. Damn. Maybe I should start Angels and Demons then.

Fuck fuck fuck. I went for a 15 minute run on the treadmill today. It was intense. /flails.

P.S. I told my dad about my camera. He laughed at the way I told him but I could tell he was unimpressed.

It’s ridiculous. I used to be so messed up always worrying about where I’m going to live, what general studies I was going to take, what sort of job I’d find myself with, is I was to go back to UVic next year. And then I decided to stay home. And I’m all WOOOOOOSH floating high as a bird. I love this.

I’m working 6 days in a row coming up Wednesday at the grill. I went in and talked to the hotel manager and they’ve offered to call me when it’s busy. So I might just be getting a shift sometime this weekend too. Yikes, I’m exhausting myself.

Currently I’m finishing off a L of rum of coke. It’s about 1/3 rum. I’ve drank half in the past hour. I’m drunk. I wasted before I left Justin’s. I don’t want to be drunk right now, I just don’t want flat coke and rum. I’d chug it but I have no chase…

It’s my day off today. I’m going to sleep in and stay home. Unless I get called out durig the day. No no no no I want to work out and sleep and use the tred mill since my brother’s gone camping for 3 days. OH SHIT MY BROTHER WENT CAMPING AND HIS CAR BROKE DOWN SO THEY’RE CAMPING IN A THE MIDDLE OF NO WHERE. How fucking shitty of a trip. I feel so bad for him. How’s he going to get home? He has work on Thursday. He’s in interior BC. He was planning this trip for weeks. He loves that car like a baby. Ahhhh bruder ilu get home safe kthxbai.

Last sip and I’m out.

P.S. New friend Andrew is better at trip hop than hardcore (though that’s probably becuase I listen to a shit load of trip hop and no hardcore thus do not appreciate his hardcore-ness). He’s pretty sweet.

CRAE CRAE.

Rae says (4:21 AM):
they’re stuffed dodos
and they are the pinnacle of hilarity.

Needless to say, a fantastic way to end an evening.

I finally went and got my bike from Hilary’s tonight. Biked over to Matt M’s for a night of Bomberman, quesadillas, pomegranate juice, Crank, Lost, and talking for another hour. Then I biked home and talked to Rae. I’m falling over tired though and Katie wants to go shopping in the afternoon. Ahhhh I have work at 4:30pm. Let’s hope this all works out.

Sleep time is NOW.

Nutrition Tips

(via Matt M, on the island)

“The only rule you really have to follow is: if your great great great great great great great great great grandpa ate it
then eat it
if he didn’t
throw it away
=)”

Oils

coconut oil is the healthiest oil you can get

and it’s the only oil you should cook with at high temperatures

extra virgin olive oil is good up to medium heat

after that its fatty acids break down into trans fats

the only oils you should EVER consume are coconut oil and extra virgin olive oil

and be absolutely certain that both are “cold pressed”

all other vegetable oils are terrible for you

in order to efficiently extract them from the seeds

at a rate that is profitable

super high heat and pressure are required

this process chemically alters the monounsaturated fatty acids in the oils

breaking them down into trans fats

and trans fats are the only type of fats you should avoid like the plague

the idea that saturated fat is bad for you is a lie designed to sell bogus health products

saturated fats are healthy in the correct quantities

Margarine

now I already know you don’t use margarine, so that is good

but I’ll make you feel even better about it now

a lot of people think margarine is just processed butter

in fact margarine is 100% different, it’s processed vegetable oils

and as we already discussed

vegetable oils kill you

so take that bad oil

and process it more

and then on top of that

hydrogenated margarine

the process of hydrogenations chemically alters the fatty acid chains, moving one of they hydrogen atoms

which results in straightening out the normally kinked chain

making it, essentially, toxic to your body

except your body doesn’t recognize that it’s not a normal fat

and stuffs it in your cells anyway

where it can’t properly interact with things the way it’s supposed to

due to it’s new shape

so basically your cells get hydrogenated

lol

fun huh?

also the processing of vegetable oils produces lots of free radicals

which are highly reactive

and when taken into the body

tend to interact VERY negatively with cells and tissue

causing damage

and paving the way for cancer to develop

so

margarine causes cancer

=)

Eggs

do not eat white eggs

ever

waste of time

organic free range eggs cost about 4 times as much in the grocery store, but every dollar is worth it

the white eggs produced from caged hens fed fake food diets

have totally imbalanced levels of omega-3s and omega-6s

where free range eggs are a healthy 1:1 ratio

white eggs can be as much as 19:1 omega6 : omega3

it’s not even a case of organic being *better* in this case… it’s really to the point of white eggs arguably being BAD for you, lol

Pecans

pecans are super good for you despite being 53% fat by weight

but of course for that reason you should only eat 1-2 handfuls a day

Blueberries

blueberries are also something you should eat a couple of handfuls of every day

they’re the best readily available anti-oxidizing berry, and they dramatically reduce the risk of cancer

black raspberries (not blackberries) are 3 times better than blueberries but they’re also very hard to find

Fish

eat fish at LEAST once a week

it MUST be wild fish

farmed fish is totally void of nutrients

Go Organic

buy organic, always.  it’s not about being a trendy elitist or animal rights

organic really is better.  non-organic produce tends to be missing essential nutrients

or worse, is genetically altered and isn’t even what it looks like, and could be very harmful to your body

organic is more expensive, but the investment in your body is worth it.  the effect of not doing it is going to be dramatic

drop as much processed food as you can bear to

—

He’s got a lot of information in that nogin of his, lol. He reserches and knows his stuff so take his words to heart, and perhaps make some changes to your diet for the better. I know I have. Yay pro health!

Oleg’s birthday party = beer pong, smirnoff ice, liquor melon, coconut and rose shisha, bbqing, house music, settler’s of cattan, more shisha, and lots of chips and garlic bread.

I’m tired now and have work at 12pm. Katie’s in my bed and I should be there too.

Goodnight.

P.S. I have 3.04$ in my bank account. Fml.

Here’s a gem from last night. I wanted to see if my webcam could capture movement.
Apparently not.
=)

It’s Friday night. I got off work early, caught the bus with a minute to spare, heard of my external hard drive getting pried open for information retrieval, made it home before dark, had pink salmon (canned = not as good, booo) with cucumber and mayo on fresh french bread, relaxed in my room for a bit, and then realized that I’m happy staying home tonight. I might even watch a movie tonight! And clean my room? Ehhh…

Anyways, I’ve been sleeping in till 4pm the past couple days, not good when you work at 5pm. BUT YES. Life is great. I’m ready to quit at the hotel since I’ve only had 4 shifts in the past 2.5 weeks. And because I keep having to call every night. Annoying~

I’m actually kind of tired. I really just want a hot bowl of chicken broth, some pomegranate juice, and a cup of vanilla ice cream. I wonder if we have all those things…

I ate 5 pieces of pizza last night, for the record. WTF. I usually eat like 3, 4 max for dinner… this is pure evidence that weed makes you hungry! Ahhhhhhh so fatz.

Actually, speaking of fat, I was just talking to Matt M and he mentioned CLA supplements. Matt “decided to start taking CLA supplements since it doesn’t exist in our diet anymore due to the way they feed cows, and one of it’s functions is targeting and reducing a small layer of fat that sits just overtop of the abdominal muscles”. ISN’T THAT SUCH A SOCIETY FAIL? Anyways, they’re like 35$ a bottle and according to the health expert guy at the organic booth where the tablets were being sold, they work. So I’m curious and might consider getting some when I move out.

My clothes are tight and look bad on me. I seriously need to re-think my eating habits. I mean, they’re not BAD, but they’re not ideal. I definitely need way more vegetables in my diet. I know that, for sure. I MAYBE get one in a day, since I’m home so infrequently. I’ve stopped going to the gym which doesn’t help at all either. Ugh. I also did my 100+ sit ups a day thing for about a week before working and partying and sleeping won and I was rushing from one to another without taking the time to do my sit ups. There’s an Underwear Affair party going on the Friday. I’m going to wear a slip rather than full out lingerie, kthx. Let’s hope it still fits me. Otherwise, I’m rocking the booty shorts and oversized shirt.

Um, okay, I’m going to go make a hot drink or something and watch tv/a movie with my dad.